Being honest about Anxiety.

Hello blog world,

I feel like I am making it a very bad habit of not posting very often at all and then apologising for it. So if you didn’t see it coming, here it is again! I’m sorry it’s been so long. But I promise I have a good reason.

I have taken a new step in life, an adult step. I have officially moved out and in my first ever flat! How exciting! So, one thing you need to know about moving out is that it’s okay to feel so many different emotions because I can tell you now, I felt so many emotions I don’t even know what half of them even were. Excited, happy and finally becoming and adult, to also feeling so scared, sad, confused and so much more.

I think suffering from anxiety really doesn’t help this sort of situation. I’ve thought to myself for a long time now, i’m ready to start a new chapter in my life and felt like things in my life were getting way to intense and to stressful and really did not help my anxiety. So I needed to be selfish and think about myself and do something about it, as hard as it was I made the decision to move out.

I’ve lived in the same house for 23 years, so that’s why I found it so difficult. I wasn’t used to big changes and I have to admit that I relied on my parents a lot growing up. I had a normal childhood, nothing crazy but had loving parents who looked after and took care of me. About 5/6 years ago now, something happened between my family and I honestly just felt like my life was just slowing falling to pieces, just one thing after another and wasn’t to sure how to handle things or if anything was going to get better.  I was a very shy person, so didn’t express my feelings, opinions and emotions what so ever. So having all these emotions and thoughts in my head was to much which I think made me realise my anxiety.

I wouldn’t say my anxiety is as ‘severe’ as other people. But to be honest I don’t feel like I know enough about anxiety. It’s probably because it took me so long to realise that I have it or that I’m in denial about having a form of anxiety. Wow, this just got rather deep and depressing! I think the reason I am actually admitting this for the first time to people I don’t know is because I want people to be more aware of anxiety.

Of course, I’m not saying at all that no one knows about it, I mean you see so much about it now its incredible and that’s the way I found out that I had it. If it wasn’t for the amount of awareness being shown, I would be the person I am today, I still have a long way to go but I feel like I’m a lot further than I ever thought i’d be. I just wanted to let people know that it’s not something to be afraid of. You just have to embrace and learn to deal with it in a way that makes you comfortable. There is no wrong way either, whatever works best for you. Whatever makes you happy! Okay, now I near to steer this into a more happier note. Don’t see your anxiety or any other mental health issues as a burden or a bad thing, it’s who you are and makes you who are as a person! Be happy with yourself, it won’t come to you just like that, heck I’m still working it out myself. But with the love and support of others around you or just support from yourself, you can achieve whatever you want and be whoever you want. Don’t let other people put you down, you are stronger than you think. Just remember, change your thoughts and you change your world.

Here is a tattoo I got for my to look at when I’m either feeling happy or even feeling down.

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Live by the sun, Love by the moon. 

You see all my light and you love my dark. 

It reminds me that were not all perfect, we all have light and dark. Positive and Negatives. But that makes us who we are and we should love who we are no matter what. It takes time and were all still learning but we will get there, it may take a long time but its sometimes more about the journey and not the destination. 

I hope this could help some of you out there who are feeling a little down and that your not alone. Also, hope this wasn’t to much or to deep! I’m very nervous about posting this and still as i’m typing this right now I’m debating it. But I know it’ll be worth it if it just makes someone that little bit happy or just puts the smallest smile on someones face.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope you all have a magical day. 🙂

Much love

Gee. xoxo

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New YouTube video!

Hey Guys! I have a new video out!

I was tagged by the lovely @Apricot_Sundae to do the Walt Disney World Tag!

I done this tag in two parts because I totally blab on way to much! 🙂

But hey its Disney, who doesn’t love to talk about Disney World!

Hope you enjoy it! Don’t forget to like and subscribe if you enjoy my video!

Walt Disney World Tag!

 

Hello again my Disney Lovers! I’m back with another Disney Tag! I will most probably end up doing a video on this as well but I wanted to keep up with my blog to 🙂 I love nothing more than a Disney Tag! Plus this one is is Disney World so I’m excited! 🙂

Hope you enjoy it!

1- First time you went to Disney World?

I was 6 years old the first time I went, so I don’t really remember anything about that trip to be honest. Thinking about it I don’t remember much about the trips when I was a lot younger, I remember more when I went in 2007/2010 and i’ve been 6 times so far.. So I don’t remember the first 3 times much which is terrible I know but at least I have lots of greats pictures to remember them by 🙂

2- Favorite park?
Hmm.. I love all the parks but I’d have to say Hollywood Studios or MGM as it used to be has always been my favourite! It has awesome rides such as Tower of Terror and Rock ‘n’ Rollercoaster! And my favourite show Fantasmic and so much more! I think also because I am a huge movie lover and as Hollywood Studios is themed on movies makes me love it so much! Also, I absolutely love the buildings down Hollywood Boulevard and Sunset Boulevard are just perfect!

3- Favorite land in Magic Kingdom?
Probably Frontierland because I love Splash Mountain!

4- Favorite Disney resort hotel?
Okay, so don’t hate me but I actually haven’t stayed at a Disney resort before 😦 I know.. Terrible right! But because there is always no less than 10 of us that go its harder for us to afford to stay in a Disney resort and we love having our own villa with own hot tub and pool and just our own space! But when I go back with just me and my boyfriend I would totally love to stay at The Animal Kingdom Lodge! Looks absolutely amazing! My total ideal  theme of a hotel!

5- Favorite snack?
I feel like my favourite snack isn’t as popular as I thought it was but mine in the Churro 🙂 Yum! But if I’m at a water park then funnel cake!

6- Favorite souvenir?
Wow.. there is so many souvenir’s to choose from! I love collecting pins, I think they are such a great way to collect memories from each park. There is so many different types of pins to collect from park pins, character pins, ride pins and so much more! I also think plush toys are my favourite as I collect quite a few of them! 🙂

7- Favorite table service and counter service?
50’s Prime Time Cafe in Hollywood Studios! Great food and great experience! All round great choice for dinner! For counter service is definitely has to be Flame Tree BBQ at Animal Kingdom! Awesome food so tasty! Great atmosphere and lovely views! Good choice for a quick bite to eat.

8- Favorite ride?
So many to choose from.. But i’d probably say Tower Of Terror!

9- Favorite show?
There are so many that I love but it’s got to be between Fantasmic and The Festival of The Lion King.

10- Favorite parade or fireworks?
Fantastic if it counts if not then Wishes, but also love Illuminations (kind of defeated the object of that question) oops!

11- Favorite pavilion in Epcot?
America because I love the Voices of Liberty performance!

12- What color is your magic band?
I don’t have one 😦 But i’ll be getting one next time I go and I think i’ll be getting yellow for Pluto 🙂

13- Favorite character to meet?
I don’t often meet characters, only tend to meet the same two every time I go and that is Pluto and Mickey Mouse!

14- A character you haven’t met but really want to?
Hmm… Probably Rapunzel and Flynn Rider I reckon!

15- Your best Disney memory?
I don’t know if I had just a one best memory because I’ve had so many great memories every time I go! But I think one of my best would probably be seeing Fantasmic! It just makes me so happy hearing the first single note when the show starts and the atmosphere and it’s just so magical and literally makes me so happy! That’s when I know I’m at my favourite place on earth! Also, one of the on going things my dad and I do is after hour 9 hour journey on the plane.. we’ve gotten all of our luggage and go to pick up our car, is walk out of the airport doors into the Florida air.. We call it that Florida feeling 🙂 Cheesy I know! Let me know if you guys know what I mean! But its going from and cool, air conditioned inside to the lovely Florida heat! Best feeling ever and that’s when I know I am at my second home 🙂

There you have it! I really enjoyed doing that tag! Let me know if you guys do the tag as well! Plus let me know any other Disney Tag’s out there I could do!

Thank you for reading!

Hope you all have a magical day! See you real soon!

Much love Gee. xoxo

Disney Holiday Hints and Tips Tag!

What could be better than the actual holiday itself.. This planning of course!

So here is a Tag for exactly that 🙂 I was tagged in this by the lovely @Apricot_Sundae

So here we go!

Disney Park: Walt Disney World

1. When is the best time to visit? 

I personally think the best time to visit would be September/October, because it’s just after the summer rush so it quietens down quite a lot with the people and the weather!        ( But it’s still really hot 😀 ) Also, its Halloween which is amazing in Disney!

2. How long is the perfect visit? 

I think the perfect visit is three weeks! But that’s because I like to do everything.. All six disney parks, universal parks, busch gardens discovery cove the lot! So three for me! But if your doing just Disney then two weeks is plenty enough! Get to do the park’s more than once then 🙂

3. Which hotel is the best to stay at and why? 

Unfortunately, I have never stayed onsite at a Disney hotel 😦 But hopefully one day and when that day comes it would definitely be the Animal Kingdom Lodge! My dream to stay there! When I have lots of money of course 😉

4. Is there anywhere else to visit near the park? 

There are some great restaurants to visit on the road 192 or something like that, but besides that i’d definitely recommend visiting Fantasia Gardens – Disney mini golf! I have had hours/days of fun there! Two different types of courses to choose from and the great thing is if your buy the park tickets for either 14/21 day pass you don’t have to pay for the golf! You can only do it once a day but you can play everyday and not pay once! It’s much nicer in the evenings when its still warm the street lights are up and you’ve got the amazing view of Tower of Terror in the background and some evenings Fantasmic playing! Just magical 🙂

5. What is the one thing that is a must to pack? 

Hmm.. I reckon the main one would be my camera of course! I do vlog my holidays, but even if you don’t, it’s a great way to capture all the memories without having to pay for things such as ride photo’s and character photo’s, or just general fun and candids moment you may not think to capture.

6. Where is the best place to take a picture of the castle? 

There’s actually loads of great places to take a picture from of the castle, of course you have the main choice from the front but unless you want loads of people in the picture maybe not the best. Mine is actually from the side, there is a small walk way from the side of the castle leading onto another walk way taking you into Liberty Square, you can get an absolutely beautiful picture with the castle reflecting onto the water surrounding the castle. Also, taking the picture at night when the castle is lit is a great photo to! Here is my favourite picture that I took on my last trip 🙂

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7. Where is the best place to watch the parade? 

Well, Main Street is of course the best place to watch the parades, but you may struggle to find a place, unless your willing to wait in your spot for quite a while, besides that I find that Frontierland is always a good place and you don’t normally have to get there extremely early.

8.  Where is the best place to watch the fireworks? 

Again.. Main Street is the best place to watch the firework as its the front of the castle and your looking straight on, but it can get quite busy and crowded there and if you are like me and don’t do well in crowded places, also because of my height I struggle to see, then my favourite place is the walkway/entrance into Tomorrowland! It’s a great view! It’s not dead centre of the castle but it may as well be, you can hardly see a difference and still get the magical feeling as if you were watching in on Main Street.

9. Which restaurant would you recommend and why? 

Surprisingly (dont hate me) I haven’t really eaten in a lot of restaurants inside Disney, mainly because we can’t really afford to do it often and we tend not to like to have big meals during the day, makes us feel tired and lazy 🙂 But I totally want to try more! But I’d definitely recommend 50’s Prime Time Cafe in Hollywood Studios! It’s such a great experience, totally different to most places.

10. What food should I try? 

It’s been a while since I ate there but I’m pretty sure I had fried chicken, red onion mash and gravy! But it was so yummy! 🙂

11. Which rides are a must? 

Ah there is so many! Definitely Tower Of Terror and Rock’n’Rollercoaster Aerosmith. Splash Mountain, Expedition Everest, Dinosaur. Oh gosh so many! There is probably many more I just can’t think of them all right now!

12. If I can only buy one thing, what should it be? 

I would say that the best thing to buy if it was only one would be a pin! I have so many and they are a lovely thing to have. The great thing is that there is so many different pins to choose from and all memorable to! Pins to represent the parks, the rides, disney characters. Awesome thing to collect!

13. If I can only do one thing in the park, what should I do? 

Hmm.. I’d say to meet Mickey Mouse or your favourite character. It’s a great experience, just so magical and a must do 🙂 My favourite character is Pluto! So they are actually the only two characters I meet when I go to the parks! But only because i’ve met most of them before years and years ago so I’m happy just meeting a few 🙂

14.What is the one thing I must take into the park?

Definitely a bag, nothing to big. Easy to carry around and not to heavy that it’s uncomfortable and ruins your day. I took just a small little back pack and we shared it between us by taking it in turns holding it. So it’s great for holding your camera, money and personal belongings etc.. Also incase you need a raincoat or change of clothes always comes in handy!

15. If you had to tell me your own top tip/hint what would it be? 

 

My top tip/hint would be to take your time in the parks and enjoy the days in each park. I find quite a lot of people do half days, but there is actually so much to do in all the parks, I feel that quite a lot can be missed by people rushing to get things done! Spend a whole day in each one, take in all the rides, shows, shops, characters and the atmosphere. That Disney feeling is so magical! 🙂

That’s it! I love doing tag’s like this! Of course.. I’m talking about Disney World what could be better! 🙂

The Disney Princess Tag!

Hey guys!

So this is a first, but I’m going to be doing a tag for the first time on my blog! I was tagged by the lovely Jade from @outsidethetower who I follow on Twitter! (Be sure to give her a follow 😀 ) To do the Disney Princess Tag! So here we go…

1) Which Princess do you like the least?
Erm… I’d have to say Snow White. I have never really been a fan of the film anyway and just can’t seem to grow to like her!

2) Which Princess do you adore most?
Okay, it’s definitely got to be Rapunzel! I love her!

3) Which Princess do you relate too most?
Hmm.. I’m not to sure actually. Maybe Rapunzel because she’s like fun, quirky and a loving person.

4) Which sidekick do you wish you had?
Totally has to be Mushu, he makes me laugh so much! Or Pascal, his super cute!

5) Which best friend(s) would you like to hang out with?
Hmm.. Pascal or Meeko!

6) Which Prince would love you?
Obviously Flynn Rider.. I mean come on! 🙂

7) Which parents would raise you?
Mulan’s! Not to sure why, just think it’d be pretty cool 🙂

8) Which Castle do you want to live in?
Definitely Cinderella! I mean how beautiful is her castle in Florida! ❤

9) Which dress do you wish to own?
Mulan’s dress/outfit is pretty cool. Also Pocahontas dress is cute!

10) Which voice do you wish you had?
Hmm.. I love Pocahontas’s voice! Love to have hers!

11) Which two Princesses would be best friends?
Erm.. Maybe Ariel and Rapunzel because they both like exploring new places etc…

12) Which two Princesses do you think would hate one another?
Hmm.. I honestly have no idea. I’m going to say… Cinderella and Aurora! No clue why just the first names that came to my head!

13) Which two sidekicks would make a good duo?
Mushu and Pascal! Would be so good to see what mischief they’d get up to!

14) Which two Princes would be best buds?
I’m going to say Flynn Rider and Aladdin! I think they’d get along really well.

15) Which scene makes you cry?
When Rapunzel thinks Flynn Rider is dead and tries to heal him by singing to him 😦

16) What scene makes you cheer?
I know it’s not really to do with the princess herself but when Aladdin sets Genie free 🙂

17) Which movie is your favourite soundtrack?
Oh there is so many! I love Tangled. I love Mulan. I love Pocahontas as well! Ah gosh so many to choose from!

18) Which scene makes you cringe the most?
Probably when Jasmine kissed Jafar!

19) Which story do you wish was your life?
Hmm.. Not to sure actually, that kind of a hard one. Maybe Rapunzel just so I can have long hair and seeing the floating lanterns! 🙂

20) Which movie do you love the most?

I literally love them all! So kind of hard to choose but it would be between Tangled, Pocahontas and Mulan!

Thank you so much for reading! Hope you enjoyed it! 🙂

Exciting Disney News and Throwbacks!

Unless you didn’t already know, I have a bit of an obsession with all things Disney! From the movies to the parks. I just love them, so here is some exciting news! I have officially booked my Disney World (Florida) Holiday! I have probably mentioned it a few times, but there was a few obstacles in the way to actually get round to literally booking the holiday. I was supposed to go this year, but it came round way to quick, without having actually booked it and none of us having enough money to afford it at such short notice, but never mind that.

It’s officially been booked for October 2017! I can’t tell you how excited I am, from today its been three years since I have been to the Happiest place on earth and I am having major withdrawal symptoms. So I decided why not take a look back at some of my favourite photo’s and moments and memories from my previous trips! All the photo’s were taken by me, all from my camera, no one else’s photo’s. I hope you enjoy them and love to hear what you think!

Some of these photo’s aren’t Disney World, but are from my Florida holiday, so include different parks to!

 

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Discovery Cove
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Busch Gardens, Giraffe Feed
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Islands Of Adventure
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Magic Kingdom
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Universal Studios
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Blizzard Beach
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Hollywood Studios, Tower Of Terror
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Churro!
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Epcot

 

2016.

Hello again.

Welcome 2016! Yet again its been a while since I last updated my blog. Been so busy with work and everything else.

But Happy New Year to you all!

I tend to end up making similar resolutions every year. But anyway here we go.

Number one on my list is normally on a lot of people’s list which is exercising and eating healthier. I’ve recently put on quite a bit of weight and I know its entirely my fault. I had a few months of finishing work at 11/12pm every night and was to tired to cook when I got home so ended up getting take aways (quite a lot). So I am going to try my up most best to eat a lot healthier and exercise more, so that I have a healthy body. (All that bad food didn’t do me any good).

My issue is getting motivated and then staying motivated, but this year I’m going to try 110%, it doesn’t help that I’m such a fussy eater but I will give it my best!

Number two on my list is my blog/youtube channel. Over christmas I got a brand new tripod which is amazing! I already have my camera and now have to get some lighting, to hopefully film a lot more! I absolutely love making youtube videos for you guys, so that is why it is one of my new year resolutions, film and edit a lot more! Also, to try and keep up with my blog, I end up neglecting it and hate that i’ve done so. It’s hard finding the time with working but I’m going to try a lot harder to get my blog and YouTube channel up and running again, I enjoy doing it so much and love it when you guys give me feedback!

My last resolution is to make more time for my friends and myself. This past year or so I haven’t been the greatest friend, not seeing them as much as I should of, even though we all have crazy schedules, it isn’t an excuse. It’ll be so good for me as well to see my friends more.

It’s so important to make sure you balance your time with your friends and family and don’t neglect spending time with them. It honestly helps so much. I’d love to hear what your guys New Year resolutions are and how they help you! I hope you guys had an amazing 2015 and make 2016 as good as you want it to be! Oh and I hope you had a magical christmas 🙂

 

Much Love

Gee. xoxo